Evelyn Yong's

 

 

Lazy pig is what I can describe myself since I'm home. Time flies. I've lost my enthusiasm to do what I should do. The only thing i do everyday is watching tv, even though it's repeating the same dramas over and over again the whole day. Some part of myself is sick of this kind of life, of which my holidays could be spent by doing more meaningful things such as doing revision, searching for useful information for my research, doing exercise, etc. Sorry to the books I brought back for study, and sorry to myself for using so much energy to bring them back that day. Rediculous.

 

I'm quite sure that I'm sort of mentally sick. How to motivate myself to fight for my own again? Couldn't help with myself when I suddenly become so emotional and easily irritated on small things recently, although the whole day my mood is quite normal. May be because of hormone change? Feel sorry to someone.

 

Frustrated.

 

 

This week have been posted to paediatrics ward. I'm quite shock when I hear my juniors told me that they hate working in this ward on the 1st day they were posted here. The reason is those toddlers are not easy to deal with, and they like to cry when we need to take their vital signs. Don't know whether is it because i'm not the first time posted to paediatrics ward or because of i really like kids, I found that I still can handle them patiently. Even though I know that children normally very rare will stick and click with me, and I'm lacking the skills to interact with them, I still try my best to cheer them up and comfort them when they are not very happy during the vital signs taking sessions. Children are not like adult, they need extra attention.

 

Yesterday was the 1st day in the ward. A chinese boy came approach me and keep talking with me when I checking on the emergency trolley. Actually of course I prefer there's no interruption when I trying to count carefully the items inside the trolley, but because he is a kid then I have patience on him. Haha. Children need attention. Haha. Therefore I answer his each question when he talks with me. As a 'reward', he gave me a sweets. Hehe. Too bad I can't eat the sweet because I forgot to take it out from my pocket before I put my uniform inside the washing machine...Sorry ya, my dear...My CI asked me whether the boy is my new friend or not because the boy keep talking to me whenever he is near with me. She asked him which 'jie jie' he likes the most, then the boy pointed to me...paiseh...haha...Before I left the ward, the boy waved and say goodbye. Sweet.

 

Kids are innocent and adorable. I always see hope when I look at them. I like to see children playing also. They never fail to cheer me up. Hehe.

 

I love children.

 

 

I love spending time with church youth. Tonight during playing time we really played seriously, until i oso "zou guang" because dunno how many ppl pull me and i lost control and fell down to floor..haha..feel like i'm a prey being divided by few hungry predators..haha..anyway, i dunno how bad is it for the "zou guang", but i know that my shirt got pull up..and sure they saw my bra strip, coz dunno who pull my sleeve..omg..haha..but it's just a game, i don mind it..i play oso very serious de..haha..

 

I long for playing outdoor game..sth like playing flying fox, climbing high wall..haha..sth like team game..(need to keep fit 1st before playing..too heavy d very hard to play, haha..) no need to worry about dirty or not, rough or not...i like the feeling of playing together no matter boys or girls...

 

Sigh..boys? havent found one suitable to be a partner..i mean same age or elder than me..some are good one, but yonger than me..hm..heard ppl said that we have to find our partner during uni time, if not it'll be too late..izzit? sigh..dunno la, i dunno if i can handle tis matter well or not for now..haha..

 

Anyway, now is the time to enjoy life. Enjoy being yourself. Yeah...

 

 

 

 

 

总是在繁忙的日子忙得快要崩溃，有时候也是自找的，因为没有好好的安排时间，没有好好专心去做。但也有时是同个时间要交很多功课。自从这个学期开始，我都一直觉得很迷惘，不懂自己过的是什么日子。当我突然看看日期，哇，2009年，已经过得差不多尾声了，可是我总感觉2009年刚刚才开始。已经过去的日子让我觉得自己根本没有好好享受到，换句话说，我已经迷失了，不知道自己过了这么多日子到底得到了什么。痛恨自己为什么那么懦弱，可是总是无法自拔。

 

总是在忙碌完成一样功课过后，感觉虚脱了，总是让自己放肆的什么都没做的过完一天，还觉得那一天超闷的。不明不白的失去了自己。也比较容易陷入感性的情绪里头。如果那一天刚好有什么打击，自然对我的影响会比较深长久远。

 

某人说，只要一停止推动力，就很难再重新开始有动力去做事情，我蛮赞同的。往往推动力没有了的时候，就会感到不懂什么理由要做下去，也可能会怀疑到底自己所选的是对是错。。当初的热诚和梦想，哪里去了？

 

 

 

 

Son: "Dad, why would God make me so small and weak?"

 

Dad: "to show how might He is..."

 

 

说话的技巧，我一向不太会，也很少有那个“权威”成为一大堆人的焦点，因为我讲话都好像缺乏说服力。哈哈。。连老师都说我这个人不够vocal，不太会表达自己。应该跟性格有关系吧，一向来比较内向，也比较不多话。不是不想讲话，而是都不知道怎样讲，该说些什么。而我也不是“吱喳”的人。

 

我知道有时是自己太自我了吧，嘴巴很少会“卖口乖”的去讨好人。。也许很多时候从自己的角度去看事情，忽略了其他人吧。。

 

可能我应该学习怎样风趣一点。。不要太认真，也不要把自己的价值观放在别人身上去用，不要挑污点，不要意见太多。。